...THE TWILIGHT REALM OF OPPORTUNITY
TO CHANGE
TO A HEALTHY ASSERTION OF EROS
IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...
OUT OF FALSE PERFORMANCE
AND NARCISSISTIC INDULGENCE...
OUT OF AUTO-EROTIC SELF ABSORPTION AND SKILLED SEX MANIPULATION...OUT OF MUTUAL MANIPULATIVENESS AND DISCHARGE...OUT OF FANTASY AND PRETEND...OUT OF DREAMS AND DISSOCIATION...OUT OF PAIN-KILLER MEANS OF NUMBING AND ANAESTHETIZED ESCAPISM...OUT OF THE INTENSITY IN A NARROWED OR CORRIDORED PATTERN OF ZONING DENSITY...
A NEW WAY OF REAL TIME...TO FACE WOONDEADNESS...THE REALM OF INNER DEADNESS OF SHUT DOWN WAYS...THE CONFLICTS OF VANITY FEARS AND IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT...
THE REALM OF 'USE WHAT YOU GOT TO CATCH OR HOLD'...THE ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR MENTALITY...THE POWER GREATER THAN LOVE EXCESSES OF CONTROL...THE EXCHANGE GAME OF KEEPING SCORE...
THE HIDDEN AGENDA MEANS OF DECEPTION AND RAWAR CONQUEST...THE OWNERSHIP OF WITHDRAWALS AND DISTANCINGS AS WELL AS MANIPULATIVENESS OF SEDUCTIONS AND TRICKS...THE ABSENCE OF INTEGRITY IN EROS AS 'DISCHARGE' OR 'RELEASE' [GETTING OFF IS MORE VALUED THAN INTIMACY PRESENCE]...
DIFFERENCE...CHANGE...CRISIS AS OPPORTUNITY TIME OF RECONSTITUTION OR RECRYSTALLIZATION OF DIRECTION...LETTING GO OF MEDIATION POWER MEANS AND EXCESS BAGGAGE OF HABITS WAYS...
THE ACCESSING OF 'INNER NECESSITY' IN SEEKING TO BREAK THROUGH THE IMPOSITIONS OF EXTERNAL SOURCES AS GUIDANCE FREQUENTLY COMES FROM DAMAGED PSYCHES OF MANY WHO ANAESTHETIZE AND NUMB OUT IN HABITS AND DRIVES OF SELF DECEPTION FOR 'THEY ONLY DREAM THEY ARE AWAKE'...
THE FALSE FANTASY DISSOCIATIONS OF IMITATIONS AND DENIALS...THE BLOCKS AND REDIRECTIONS OF LIFE FORCE FOR SOCIAL-ECONOMIC...THE INSTINCTS MUFFLED IN IMPOSITION TIME...THE NATURAL SUPPRESSED IN CONTROL FEAR TIME...THE RHYTHMS OF A CULTURE SERVING EMPIRE TEMPOS...
ELITE TIME...
TEMPOS OF 'WHO CONTROLS' HIS OR HER SEXUALITY... WHO DECIDES FOR SOMEONE ELSE... WHO DEFINES, REWARDS AND PUNISHES FOR SEXUAL PRESENCE...WHO DISTORTS AND LEVERAGES 'DESIRE' FOR MONEY, RELIGION AND STATUS...
WHO PACIFIES, THWARTS, MANIPULATES AND/OR USES SEXUALITY TO CONTROL AND 'OWN' SOMEONE ELSE...WHO SURRENDERS TO A DEAL AND WHO IS STRONG ENOUGH TO OVERCOME THE SELF BY SURRENDERING TO THE REALNESS OF TRUTH OF PRESENCE...
WOONDEAD
CLOCKSPEED...HE ASKED HIMSELF...HOW MANY DIFFERENT WAYS DID DID WOMEN KEEP TIME?
THERE WAS CHILD TIME, MOTHER TIME, FATHER TIME, SIBLING TIME, SISTER AND BROTHER TIME...FAMILY TIME AND FRIENDS OR PEER TIME...TELEVISION AND FILM FANTASY TIME...
TIME TO WORK...TIME TO PLAY...TIME TO LOVE...
NOT ENOUGH TIME...
WAITING AROUND...TOO MUCH TIME...
THE BLOODSHED SETS OUR CLOCKS TIME...
MENSTRUAL BLOOD TIME...
WARGASM AND PREDATION TIME OF FORCE OF VIOLENCE AND CONQUEST TIME...
THE TIME OF 'WOONDEAD'...A RAWAR TIME …
RAWAR TIME...THE SEXUALITY AND VIOLENCE AGGRESSION IN CONQUEST AND POWER TIME...THE FORCE OF DEFINITION IN CULTURE, EROS, SEXUAL ASSOCIATIONS AND FERTILITY...THE CONTROL OF THE NEXT GENERATION...AS IN THE MOVIE 'CHINATOWN' WHERE THE EXCESSES ARE QUESTIONED IN 'WHAT CAN YOU DO WITH ALL THAT MONEY'? ONLY TO SEE 'THE FUTURE' AS THE EASY ANSWER...
IT IS THE DORIAN GRAY CULTURE OF MIRRORINGS AND IMMORTALITY AS VISUAL IMAGES AND ECHOES NEVER CHANGE...THE OSCAR WILDE STORY OF THE PAINTING THAT IS ALTERED IN CORROSIONS AND DECAY AS DORIAN GRAY NEVER AGES...A CLIMATE AND A CULTURE WHERE THE ILLUSIONS AND DECEPTIONS OF DREAMS AND HOUDINI ESCAPISM ARE THE NORM AS THE CONSEQUENCES ARE BORNE IN THE ILLNESSES AND OVERLOADS OF THE ORDINARY IN ACCUMULATIONS TO COMPENSATE AND MEDIATE AGAINST THE TEMPOS OF AN ONGOING SPEED OF THE GREED--HAVE TO HAVE GAME OF KEEPING SCORE IN WATCHING 'WHO HAS MORE'...
SO WHO REALLY KNOWS WHAT TIME IT IS...
THE SEXOMONEY MEDIA FASHIONINGS OF 'CRAZE AND CRAVE' BECOMES 'IMBALANCES' AND SKEWS...THE 'TOP DOWN' RHYTHM TIME OF BUILDING PYRAMIDS MAKES FOR REWARDS FOR THE C.E.O.'S AND MANAGERS OF EMPIRE...
WALL STREET SETS OUR CLOCKS IN 'DOW-REACTIVITY' TIME...THE WORLD TRADING MARKETS OF AN INCESTUOUSNESS OF 'WEALTH-MONEY MAKING' THAT FORCES 'INSIDERS' VS. 'OUTSIDER' WAYS...SO IF YOU CANNOT CHALLENGE OR BEAT THEM...JOIN THEM'...
MONEY AND ASSETS WORTH MORE THAN LIVES TIME...THE COSTS OF DOING BUSINESS TIME...THE EXPENDABILITY TIME OF 'CHEAP LABOR' AND REPLACEMENTS...THE CLIMATE OF LEVERAGINGS AND MERGINGS WHERE 'MOST DO NOT HAVE' GOLDEN PARACHUTES AND A 'PIECE OF THE ACTION'...IT IS A HUGE 'GAP' OF WHAT DOES AND DOES NOT MATTER...
A GREAT WOONDEAD-NESS...
THERE IS 'LIP-SERVICE' TIME...POLITICO FINANCE LOBBYIST TIME...TELL YOU 'WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR' TIME...PUBLIC RELATIONS 'PHOTO-OP' IMPRINT AND IMAGE TIME...EVENING NEWS REPORT TIME AND GOSSIP UNDERCURRENTS TIME...
SOUND BYTE AND GLIB TIME...
THE OPPRESSIVENESS OF TRICKLE-DOWN BECOMES THE THEFT OF A 'RESOLVE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE' TIME...JUSTICE DELAYED AND JUSTICE DENIED TIME...
THE ALIEN-LIES AND DECEPTIONS OF TRUTH TIME...THE HOGWASH CONTEMPT AND 'CON' TIMES...THE 'FOOL MOST OF THE PEOPLE, MOST OF THE TIME' TIME...
THE 'CON' 'O' 'CO' OF 'CO' 'CA' AND 'CO' 'LA' IN A MEDIA STEAM OF 'COOL FIRE' PENETRATIONS INTO HUNGERS...NERVES, FIBERS AND GUTS CRYING OUT FOR PAINKILLERS AND ROMANCE DREAMS...THE E PLURIBUS UNUM AS 'OOH-NUMB' OF ONE OUT OF MANY...
THE TIME TO HAVE AND TO HOLD, TO FOLD, TO COMMIT, TO LEAVE AND LET GO...TO BUY AND TO SELL...
TO CELL...
TO LOVE AND BE LOVED...
FOR THE SPIRITUAL TIME IS THE TIME OF THE 'WOONDEAD'...THE TIME OF GOING WITHIN TO UNIFY WITH ALL IN THE UNIVERSE...TO FACE MORTALITY AS JIM MORRISON SAID 'THAT NO ONE GETS OUT OF HERE ALIVE' AND TO KNOW ONE'S HEART AND SOUL AS WHAT IS DENIAL, SUPPRESSION, REPRESSION, TRAUMATIZED AND 'DEADENED' OR BLOCKED WITHIN...
IT IS LIFE FORCE 'EROS' AS DRIVE TO BE PRESENT SEEKING TO EMERGE OUT OF THE 'WOUNDS'...THE ARROWS OF EARLY HARM, HUMILIATIONS AND FEELINGS OF POWERLESSNESS THAT BECOME FORTRESSINGS WHERE THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH 'WOO-ING' POSSIBLE TO OVERCOME THE 'WOONDEAD-NESS' OF TRAPPED AND WEBBED LIFE...
IT IS 'NO ONE IS LOVED ENOUGH' TO FULLY REALIZE AND RECOVER FROM THE TREASURED LOSSES AND YEARS OF COPING AND ENDURANCES...
TO LOVE IS THE PATH OF BEING IN AND SHARING WITH SOMEONE/OTHERS IN DOING WHAT IS ONE'S GIFTS AND TALENTS-TO LOVE...
IT IS A QUEST OF THE REALNESS OF BEING TO 'OVERCOME OR OVERTHROW' THE FALSE SELF OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT AND THE BEHAVIOR-CONTROL-POLITICAL MEDIATIONS OF THE FALSE SYSTEM OF DECEPTION...THE 'TRADITIONAL GAME WAY' INERTIA OF GENERATION TO GENERATION...
THE 'REASONABLE' AND THE 'CUSTOMARY' REPETITIONS OF FOLLOWING IN THE 'FOOTSTEPS' PATTERNS OF 'THIS IS THE WAY IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN DONE' TEMPOS...TIMINGS...
WOONDEAD...
THE 'OUT OF SYNC'...THE 'OUT OF BALANCE'...THE 'FAR BEHIND' AS THE TENETS OF 'REARINGS' IN 'TURNED INWARD AGAINST ONESELF' CONSEQUENCES BECOME THE DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER THAT RESULT IN LOSS OF ORGANIC INTEGRITY AND SELF ESTEEM...TRYING TO KEEP PACE WITH A 'SCARCITY-RARITY-DISPOSABILITY' SPEED COMPELS A CONSTANCY OF ADAPTATIONS OR WITHDRAWAL...A DISTANCING FOR MOST PEOPLE WHO ENDURE IN A LACK OF 'CREDIT' FOR CONTRIBUTIONS AND WORTH...A SEPARATION FROM THE SOCIAL-ECONOMIC THAT IS A GREAT SOURCE OF STRESS...THE EMPLOYMENT 'AT WILL' AND THE VULNERABILITIES OF LEVERAGING ENERGIES MERELY TO 'KEEP DOING'...
THE DRIVES OF THE FEW TO 'PRIVATIZE' BASIC COMMUNITY SERVICES HAS HARMED THE SOCIAL CONTRACT...THE GENERAL WELFARE OF HEALTH CARE HAS BECOME A MONEY GAME OF HEALTH INSURANCE WITH RICH MANAGERS AND SHAREHOLDERS WHILE ORDINARY PEOPLE GO BANKRUPT TRYING TO PAY FOR EXCESSIVELY HIGH PREMIUMS AND EXPENSES FOR WHAT IS COVERED WITHOUT DEALING WITH WHAT IS NOT PROVIDED FOR...
IT IS NOT COMMUNITY TIME...IT IS MONEY TIME...
IT IS ALWAYS A STRUGGLE TO DEFINE 'ZEITGEIST' OR THE SPIRIT OF THE TIMES...
FOR TIME IN CONFLICT BECOMES WAR TIME...FOR RITUALS BECOME RELIGIOUS OR WITCHCRAFT OR NATIONALISM TIME...FOR ENERGIES ARE DIRECTED TO WHATEVER IF THE FORCE IS STRONG ENOUGH...
FOR ENERGIES ARE DIRECTED AGAINST THE ENEMIES OF THE TIMES...MCCARTHYISMS AND GENOCIDES, ETHNIC CLEANSINGS AND APARTHEIDS, FREE SPEECH AND CENSORSHIP...A TYRANNY OF THE WEAK WHO USE FORCE TO DESTROY OR CONTROL CONTRARIANS AND DISSENTING VOICES...
TO 'CLOCK HIM'...TO SET HIS CLOCK...
FOR TIME IS LIGHT AND SHADOW AS IT OCCURS WITHIN AS WELL AS IN GLOBAL GEOGRAPHY...SHADOWS OF LEADERSHIP TIME...SHESHADOWS OF MEN OR WOMEN TIME...
ENLIGHTENMENT TIME...TRANSPARENCY TIME...DARK AGES TIME...
THINGS RUN THEIR COURSE...BIRTHING TIME...RIPENESS, BEAUTY AND SEASONING TIME...
TO MATURE, GROW AND HAVE ONE'S TIME IN THE SUN...
A TIME TO THRIVE...
A TIME OF BEAUTY AND THE BEAST...FEAR AND DESIRE...WISHES AND DREAMS...AN INTERSECT TIME...A TIME OF REPRESSED RELEASINGS AND TABOOS OF SHAME AND GUILT...BEING GOOD...BEING SO GOOD THAT ONE WILL NOT BE CRITICIZED...ONE WILL NOT HAVE LOVE TAKEN AWAY...ONE WILL RECEIVE EVERYTHING THAT MAKES THE TERROR OF ALONENESS AND ABANDONMENT WORTH IT...
ECSTASY PATHING OF A EUPHORIA...FANTASY SPLITTING TIME THAT THE REAL VISCERAL HAS BEEN NUMBED AND CONTAINED...NOTHING WILL EVER CAUSE ME TO FEEL THAT SCARED AGAIN...
HYPERVIGILANCE ALARM TIME...
WARINESS HALTING WONDER AND CURIOSITY...IMAGINATION SKEWED INTO EXPECTATIONS OF FURTHER HARM...
DEFENSE FINDING WAYS TO FILTER GETTING NEEDS MET YET TOTALLY PREVENTING EXPOSURES...DISCOVERY OF THE HIDDEN AND VEILED...VULNERABILITY...
A TRADE-OFF OF BONDAGES AND BINDINGS AS RAGE TURNED INWARD AGAINST THE SELF...A REARING CORRIDORING OF COMPRESSION AS CONTROL ALLOWS ONLY CERTAIN TYPES OF LAUGHTER AND FORGETTING...
TIME TO AVOID AND TIME TO WITHDRAW...NO TIME FOR PLEASURE AND SPONTANEITY...
TIME FOR WANTING TO BE WANTED WITHOUT TIME TO BE IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...TIME TO IMITATE AND MEDIATE AS BEING REAL IS NO TIME AT ALL...
ANGST AND VANITY TIME...
FOR SOMETHING IN THE WAYS OF MOTION...LAWS OF ATTRACTION...URGES OF INSTINCTS SEEKS TO SURFACE...TO PIERCE, PENETRATE, MERGE AND KNOW...DEEP HUNGERS OF VITALITY BREAKING THROUGH THE IMPOSITION WALLINGS AND STORMS OF EXPECTANCIES...
LOVE...
SOMETHING TO BREAK THROUGH WALLS OF FIRE, FEARS, ILLUSIONS AND THE IMITATIONS OF ACTING OUT TO BE AS SOMEONE ELSE...
LOVE...
HEART WILL OF AS IS IN PRESENCE TO CONNECT IN A FULLNESS OF COMING FORWARD AS REAL URGENCY BEYOND FALSE MEDIATIONS AND POWER DEAL MAKING...THE CORRUPTIVENESS OF GETTING SOMETHING FOR SEX THAT IS NOT LOVE PRESENCE IN WILL OF CONNECTION...
THE ABILITY TO LOVE...THE WILL TO LOVE...
IT IS TIME IN BEING WITHOUT DECEPTION, MANIPULATION AND CONTROLS OF OUTCOMES...
LOVE...
WOONDEAD...OVERCOMING THE 'WOONDEADNESS' OF INNER TRAPPED LIFE...OF OPPRESSIVENESS IN DENIALS...OF THE MADNESS TYRANNY OF SOME ECONOMIC VALUE FOR SEXUALITY...
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